a smack in the face from reality.

everything going on in my life is really starting to smack me in the face.
-my walk with the Lord is getting stronger,
but things keep happening to steer me away from Him.
-you know when people say "live each day like it's your last?" well, this quote is really making sense to me seeing as i almost died yesterday.
no joke.
-people i love are sinking deeper and deeper while i cry and pray that i can pull them out.
but it's getting harder and harder.
Lord i need your help.
-i miss some people.
i know we've got a lot going on in our lives.
but i don't know you anymore like i used to.
and i've changed. so quite frankly, you two don't know me anymore either.
-and jealousy ?
unfortunately its a new word in my vocabulary.
and i don't like it.
- im reading this book called "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" and there are some people in my life that i just want to take the book, shove it in their faces and say "read it !"
it definately makes a whole lot of sense.
thats all for now,
theres a whole lot more.
but im falling asleep.
im exhausted