a new beginning

with the summer coming to an end,
i don't know if i should be happy, or sad.

this summer was seriously, a roller coaster.
it started off great.

fun outings.
a new job.
dance intensives.
best friends.

but near the end, like right now, it just crashed.
i have never been so dissapointed with somebody i love so much.

i could scream and shout at her and tell her exactly how i feel.
i could tell her that i can't feel like i could trust her, scince she's kept it a secret for so long.
i could tell her that she's risked so many friendships for this stupid crap she's getting into.
i could even tell her that those friendships might not be the same after this.

but i had a christian mentor this summer, who taught me how to forgive.
and now that i look back, i know he was put into my life to teach me how.
so i could be prepared for this.

i still love her tremendously.
and i hope she still knows that.

every kind of sin, no matter how little or big, God can forgive.
he can totally wipe it off your slate.

and if he forgives, i should be able to also.
and i have.